Lately I've been feeling pressed for time. Before December started, I knew it would happen. Looking into my crystal ball (aka monthly calender), I knew there was simply too much to do and going on before the holidays were upon us. I also knew the culprit, Thanksgiving. Dang the day of thanks being a whole week later than most years! It threw off my internal time line.
Even knowing this would happen ahead of time I find myself getting irritated at times by the simple "too muchness"of what needs to happen within the time that is left. In relative shape, I am actually in a good spot - all of my holiday shopping has been finished, my house is decorated, our holiday cards are out, and I know what's on my calender and to be expected of me during the next month, but internally my inner self is still throwing a bit of a tantrum (no, too soon, stop, slow down, I don't have time for this, etc). Boy can my internal self sure be a cry baby, or what? However, instead of getting sucked into the internal wha-wha that wants to happen, I've been being intentional about self-care and attempting to live in a different frame of mind. I used to watch this hilarious show, Better Off Ted, (that like some other hilarious shows got canceled too soon), and although I only got to see 2 seasons one joke a character once made tends to stick in my mind. She said "My mother always said 'You say what you say, and then you've said what you've said'". Fantastic isn't it? Although it was meant as a joke I often give myself this line as permission in my life. Permission to accept myself, my circumstances, and how I am preforming (and for this former perfectionist how I preform/show up in life means a lot to me). So, as the holiday season continues to chug along, I continue to reassure myself that I can only do what I can do, and then I've done what I've done, and that's okay.
So, today as you are chugging through the stress of the holiday season, remember that you are one person and what you are doing may not feel like enough, but it really is. You can only do what you can do in this moment, so take a breath and be present in it. This is your moment to be, do and experience, so do it, and remind yourself that it is okay. You're gonna get through this.
Even knowing this would happen ahead of time I find myself getting irritated at times by the simple "too muchness"of what needs to happen within the time that is left. In relative shape, I am actually in a good spot - all of my holiday shopping has been finished, my house is decorated, our holiday cards are out, and I know what's on my calender and to be expected of me during the next month, but internally my inner self is still throwing a bit of a tantrum (no, too soon, stop, slow down, I don't have time for this, etc). Boy can my internal self sure be a cry baby, or what? However, instead of getting sucked into the internal wha-wha that wants to happen, I've been being intentional about self-care and attempting to live in a different frame of mind. I used to watch this hilarious show, Better Off Ted, (that like some other hilarious shows got canceled too soon), and although I only got to see 2 seasons one joke a character once made tends to stick in my mind. She said "My mother always said 'You say what you say, and then you've said what you've said'". Fantastic isn't it? Although it was meant as a joke I often give myself this line as permission in my life. Permission to accept myself, my circumstances, and how I am preforming (and for this former perfectionist how I preform/show up in life means a lot to me). So, as the holiday season continues to chug along, I continue to reassure myself that I can only do what I can do, and then I've done what I've done, and that's okay.
So, today as you are chugging through the stress of the holiday season, remember that you are one person and what you are doing may not feel like enough, but it really is. You can only do what you can do in this moment, so take a breath and be present in it. This is your moment to be, do and experience, so do it, and remind yourself that it is okay. You're gonna get through this.