The last month or so I've been working on getting pictures in albums. This doesn't seem like such a big deal, but I hadn't printed pictures in over 3 years, so it is a big undertaking. Along with getting them organized into albums I've also been deciding what still warrants a frame in my house, and what can be taken down to be replaced by a more recent memory. In making these decisions I find myself torn.
I really like the way I have my home right now. I like the size of the frames, where they are placed, not having additional nail holes in my walls. As Skunk could tell you, I like things how I like them, because that is what I want. But in moving forward, some of the photos I'd like to have up, simply don't fit. They are the wrong size, the wrong direction (horizontal instead of vertical), they simply don't fit and work how I pictured.
Since I was a young girl, I've always had a picture of how things would fit in life. Always, I believe most girls do. I had a vision of when this or that would happen, or how it would happen, and I expected it to work out exactly as I had dreamed. But that's the thing that people don't talk about, the grief that comes along with dreams. The pain of those dreams that just don't work out.
As an adult I repeatedly relearn that things do not work out as expected. Life is real, it doesn't always play out as we expect. And, sometimes that feels SUPER CRAPPY. But, and this is a big but, it does work in accordance to a bigger plan. It is often a plan that I don't understand, can't understand, and shouldn't understand because something so much bigger than me is at work. So this post is written for those who are currently grieving big dreams, or fearful of their dreams not working out quite as expected. There is a bigger plan. I don't know what it is or how it is suppose to work yet, but I have faith in you getting through this time, and moving forward towards the bigger vision for your life. You were made for great things.
I really like the way I have my home right now. I like the size of the frames, where they are placed, not having additional nail holes in my walls. As Skunk could tell you, I like things how I like them, because that is what I want. But in moving forward, some of the photos I'd like to have up, simply don't fit. They are the wrong size, the wrong direction (horizontal instead of vertical), they simply don't fit and work how I pictured.
Since I was a young girl, I've always had a picture of how things would fit in life. Always, I believe most girls do. I had a vision of when this or that would happen, or how it would happen, and I expected it to work out exactly as I had dreamed. But that's the thing that people don't talk about, the grief that comes along with dreams. The pain of those dreams that just don't work out.
As an adult I repeatedly relearn that things do not work out as expected. Life is real, it doesn't always play out as we expect. And, sometimes that feels SUPER CRAPPY. But, and this is a big but, it does work in accordance to a bigger plan. It is often a plan that I don't understand, can't understand, and shouldn't understand because something so much bigger than me is at work. So this post is written for those who are currently grieving big dreams, or fearful of their dreams not working out quite as expected. There is a bigger plan. I don't know what it is or how it is suppose to work yet, but I have faith in you getting through this time, and moving forward towards the bigger vision for your life. You were made for great things.
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