Healthy choices and unhealthy choices. Regardless they are ours to make even when it doesn't feel like we have much within our control.
Recently I've been thinking a lot about balance, mostly my need for more of it in my life. I keep thinking once x is over (in my case x has an actual date and lots of prep work involved) then, I can do y and z again. Or once x is over I'll be able to do y easier. The truth of it is if y were easy, I'd already be doing it. Yes, x is a valid excuse and one I will continue using until the x is over.. but the harder truth is that I am not nurturing what I want to grow in my life right now. I'm not nurturing it with my actions but more damaging is that I'm not nurturing it with my thoughts either.
Not only do y and z take time, energy, resources and desire, they also take the right attitude. So, no x has not happened yet, so I won't be focusing on balancing (in action at least) but until then I'm working on shifting my attitude, just a little bit, not too much... but a shift so when there is opportunity to make time energy, resources and desire to do y and z that my mind will be ready to embrace them (and not just feel exhausted from x).
I'm guessing you likely have a y and a z as well, so my question is what is your x, and is there a way to shift how your looking at it, feeling about it, or thinking in a little way to make y or z a little easier?
One of the little ways I've been changing my attitude is by changing my expectations of y and z, cause even though I'm not close to them yet, I still have expectations (you know cause that seems helpful,...wait a minute...maybe it's just human, not helpful). Anyway, I'm doing what I can now to nurture the y and z that I believe in, and therefore step one inch closer to the future I want. I create it, so it might as well be something I want. Right?